Revisiting an oldie.
Some days, I just need to be reminded of who's in charge.
Some days, I just want a little motivation to do what I need to do.
A few days ago was one of those days.
He was sitting on the edge of the bed with the paddle next to him.
"Come here," he said. "Put yourself over my lap."
I lowered my pants and lay quietly over his lap.
He picked up the paddle.
"I think a good spanking will get you started on the right foot today," he said quietly.
I nodded into the bedspread. I didn't disagree. I knew I needed it.
Swat! He spanked me with the paddle.
"I want you to watch your speed when you're driving today," he said.
"No texting in the car, or doing anything that could get someone hurt."
He continued, firm but not terrible swats, stinging and serious, but nothing like a punishment.
"Remember to get to the gym, and get all your other goals taken care of."
"Make sure you watch your language in front of the kids," he continued.
"You will not sass me, or speak disrespectfully to me in any way."
As he continued, I felt my certainty returning. He is my rock, and my rock is steady.
"What will happen if you break one of these rules today?" he asked, his voice becoming sterner.
Swat, swat, swat!
This is so hard for me to answer.
"I get a spanking," I croaked out.
"Yes, you absolutely will. When I come home today, I want a good report. Is that understood?"
Swat! Swat! Swat!
"I don't want to have to come home and give you a punishment spanking because you broke a rule. Do you understand me?"
Swat! Swat! Swat!
"I won't! I'll be good!"
He put the paddle down and began to rub.
"That's my good girl," he murmured. "All done now. I know you will do what you need to do." He lifted me up. He hugged me, and kissed me.
And I felt immense relief. It was a bit intimidating. He can be very stern, and having my rules repeated to me was sobering.
But it was so, so encouraging. So reassuring. And that is the power of a role affirmation spanking. It isn't humbling, like a punishment. But it's so much more than a sexy spanking.
It says "I'm in control, and you don't have to be."
It says, "You can trust me."
It says, "I love you."