Wednesday, September 12, 2018

Monday Morning Maintenance


Monday mornings, Jason lets me have it. 

Things slide here a little on the weekends. Not necessarily my obedience, but we’re more lax with the regular things like food and bedtimes, and he likes me to get right back into my schedule on Monday. And I go from having him here with me all weekend to working, and having him busy all day.

So when Monday morning rolls around, I know I’m in for an intense session, and because I’m a wimp I usually try to get out of it. I know this might seem counterintuitive. Shouldn’t I want it? Well, spankings hurt, I’m a wimp, and I know he’s going to spank me anyway, so I think it’s a sort of necessary pushback. I mean, I don’t run from the house screaming, but sometimes have conversations like this.

“You know, I’m good today. Not sure I need a spanking.”

“Ha. Funny. Get over my lap.”



“Does it have to be with that terrible implement?"


“You have ten seconds to strip.”

And so it goes.

So, Monday morning rolled around and we started in on this. He had that horrible thick pink eraser thing and pointed to his knee.

“That’s loud, though,” I said with a little pout. My high schoolers were already at school, but my younger ones still here. Sadly, they were occupied and out of earshot, so that was really a flimsy excuse.

“Over my knee.”

“It hurts, daddy, and I’ve been a very good girl, you know.”

“Drop ‘em.”

So…I “dropped ‘em” and got over his lap and tensed, waiting. And so it began. He lectured me good and hard about getting to the gym and staying on track and making sure I was being a very good girl. I squirmed and wriggled and said, “ow ow ow ow ow!”

He paused and chuckled. “You’re a wimp now. You used to be able to take a spanking. Not sure why you can’t anymore.”

I mumbled something about losing weight and getting older and hormones, but my reprieve was over and we were back at it.

On and on that spanking went until I felt myself getting to that release in submission. I let everything go. I let myself remember why we do this. I reminded myself why I obey him and why we have rules, and how good things are when I stick to my plan. And then, finally, he was done. He rubbed out the sting and told me I was a very good girl.

Monday seems to set the tone for the rest of the week, I think. Without that morning check-in, I don’t focus as well as I should. And the truth is, when he spanks me, even a hard maintenance session like this one, I feel loved. I’m at the epitome of his attention. His utter focus. He wants me to thrive with the structure and discipline he provides me.

I’m often asked how I accomplish what I do in a week, and I think it’s my not-so-secret secret.


Monday Morning Maintenance definitely helps.

Sunday, September 2, 2018

A Kinky Jewelry Shout-out!

Heyy, readers! 

I'm back! Now that September is rolling in, I'm so looking forward to getting back into a good routine, and that includes blogging regularly again (I say that every year, don't I?).

I'm a little crazy, because I am already start thinking about Christmas shopping. I like to get started early, so I have a lot of time to just enjoy the holiday season. And isn't it so special to have something that gives a nod to your lifestyle? Y'all know I adore my collar. And now that the season of giving is almost here... I'd like to recommend a shop. 

I absolutely love the work done by Obsession Jewellry. I spent a long time looking at their beautiful products and admiring the gorgeous artisan craftsmanship. Finally, I settled on this ring for Jason. 


Isn't this amazing? What I love about this ring is that it's strong and sturdy...just like Daddy. 


Bryan at Obsession Jewellry was pleasant to work with and oh so patient with me. The ring arrived quickly and beautifully boxed, in a discreet package. (This is a concern for me, y'all! My kids don't need to know about my kinky proclivities if they get the mail!). 




Jason isn't a huge jewelry person, but he loved this, which honestly kinda surprised me since I wasn't sure what he'd think. He says, "I can totally see wearing this before a session." Ahem. And it fits perfectly on my thumb, which is an excellent fit for this little girl. That means when I go to a conference or travel without him, I can wear this and feel like he's with me. He told me he'd love it if I did that. 

And that, to me, is the point of my special kinky jewelry... my collar, and my bracelet with the "daddy's little girl," bead on it. To remind me of my role, and his. Just a little something special, just between the two of us. 




Check out Obsession Jewelry HERE. I'm in love with these collars, you guys. And here's my favorite pendant: 



I'm already looking at what I want for Christmas!




Monday, August 20, 2018

Popping in with a brief hello

Hey, there, blog readers. 

Jason and the family and I have been traveling for the past few weeks. I wanted to let you know that's why I haven't blogged and why I haven't yet had a chance to reply to those of you who've written to me. Thank you so much for reaching out. I'm still here! My plans for scheduling posts ahead of time went awry when the needs of packing for a large family and making sure my work was done so I could enjoy some downtime took precedence. 

In good news... I'm thoroughly spanked, looking forward to a more stable fall routine, and our time away was beautiful. 

Looking forward to blogging again soon!! 

Monday, July 23, 2018

The Top Ten Needs of a Dominant


I have to admit, I’m not exactly sure where last week went! I had this post drafted and ready to go and then realized it’s been two weeks. I think that’s what happens when it’s summer around here. Blink, and it’s gone! In any event, here is the post I meant to post last week (apologies), and I have another post unrelated to this, so I have that scheduled for later this week to make up for not posting when I said I would. I should tell Jason. Maybe I need a spanking for that. We’ll see what he thinks (I may be a little needy). 😶 

But before I get into this list, a word of caution.

Often, submissives are the ones who present this lifestyle to their dominant partners. And often, when a submissive desires this relationship or lifestyle, he or she expects the dominant partner to immediately take to it like a duck to water. Now, sometimes they do. Most of the time, they don’t. In many cases, if the dominant partner doesn’t wish to lead, expecting them to do so can be burdensome.

So it very well may be the case that a submissive thinks his or her partner really doesn’t want this lifestyle. In some cases that is true, but in most instances that I’ve personally observed, it isn’t that the dominant partner doesn’t want the lifestyle. They want time to grow into this. They want to see sincerity from the submissive showing that they want to submit. So when I say that submission often enables dominance, it’s because actions speak louder than words. 

Talk is cheap. Anyone can say, “I want to submit.” How many can show that in action? Are we able to show that we wish to respect our dominant partners? How do we defer to them in the little things?

So my word of caution is for those who are new to this, who desire this: please don’t read this and think not my dominant. He doesn’t want this. I wish he did. Instead, I challenge you to truly think it through. Is there anything in the list that may apply that perhaps looks different in application than one might think?


Without further ado, to coincide with THE TOP TEN NEEDS OF A SUBMISSIVE , I’d like to humbly offer a list based on my observation and experience on the top ten needs of a dominant. (Thank you to those in my group who contributed to this list!) Like the other list, it's by no means exhaustive or absolute, but perhaps may shed a little light. 


THE TOP TEN NEEDS OF A DOMINANT
1. Respect

Dominants want to be respected. Most dominants love when their submissive partner says “May I.”

“May I speak with you?”
“May I have a minute with you later?”
“May I visit my sister during the holiday?”
“May I spend that money on new pillows for the living room?”
May I is formal, but so is sir. It shows that we wish to defer to their authority in the subtlest of ways.

Dominant partners don’t always lead the way we wish they would and that is how it should be. We don’t live this lifestyle for anyone else. Our relationship is unique. Sometimes, respect means accepting things we don’t want to. It means holding our tongues. It means finding the little ways of deferring to leadership that lead to the bigger ones. It means building up our dominant partner in front of our friends and family, and never saying belittling or disrespectful things in front of others.

Since texting is also a form of communication these days, I ask, do we text respectfully? Do we wait to listen before speaking (or texting) back? Do we respond respectfully when replying?

The need for respect should not be confused with the expectation of respect. Just because a dominant partner hasn’t grown into this role enough to demand respect doesn’t mean they don’t deserve it.



 2.   Acceptance.

No dynamic plays out like the next. Sure, some are similar, and that’s often where friendships are born. But no two people have the exactly same relationship.

Dominants often want to be accepted for who they are and how they live their role.

One of the easiest ways of harming the relationship is by comparing one’s dominant partner to the next. I used to do this, and it was so detrimental to our relationship. I would be absolutely devastated if Jason ever decided to compare my lack of submission to how well another submission lived her dynamic. So why did I think it was okay to compare him to other Doms? I think I lied to myself back then, and told myself I was helping our relationship by telling him what to do. Well I definitely wasn’t helping anything.

Acceptance of who he was was a crucial turning point in our dynamic.

Eventually, I accepted that he was the type of guy that didn’t want to go on forums or talk at length about discipline. That he wanted to keep our lifestyle private, and that he wanted to do things on his terms.

No one is perfect. Doms are no exception to this rule. Accepting who they are is a crucial step in making this all work. It’s also the most loving thing to do.

 3.  Guidance.

In order to meet our needs, our dominant partner wants to know what those needs are. How can we present those needs in such a way so that we aren’t telling them what to do, but rather openly and honestly explaining our needs?

I often prefer “I” words.

“I love when you care about me enough to help me set boundaries,” instead of “You need to tell me what to do.” See the difference there?

In BDSM relationships, there are hard and soft limits, and though D/s dynamics aren’t the same, there are many parallels. What are your hard limits? What are your soft limits? What is it that you like? What is it that you don’t?


It’s important to communicate those needs in an open, honest manner, devoid of passive aggression.


I used to expect Jason to know my needs, and if he didn’t, I would act out to get those needs met. When I needed attention, stress relief, consistency, or pretty much anything in the top ten needs of the submissive, I would sometimes brat out to get those needs met. It was childish and self-centered to do that. Over the years, I needed to find ways of communicating my needs to him.

If he was to be my leader, he needed feedback from me. He needed to know when my needs were met, and when they weren’t. So instead of allowing these things to build up to the point where I reacted in childish ways to get those needs, we developed our check in system.

I asked him recently if he still liked our check-in’s. He said, “Yes, I do. It sets the whole tone for the day.” When we spend time in daily communication, I am able to give him the guidance he needs to lead me, and I’m also able to show him I respect him as leader of my home.


There are many other ways of communicating. Journaling, blogging, weekly meetings, undivided attention before bed at night. 



 4. Trust.

Jason needs to know I trust him. When I place myself in his hands to be disciplined, guided, and cared for, I show him that I trust him. One of the reasons why BDSM relationships bring a couple closer together is often because the level of trust required is intense. In a Dom/sub relationship, we trust our dominant partners with more than our bodies: we trust them with our hearts.


How do we show that trust? It sounds obvious, but one of the simplest ways is simplying by saying, “I trust you.”


I trust you to make this financial decision. I trust you that the decision is for the benefit of our family. I trust that even though you’re a father and you sometimes parent differently than I do as a mom, that your way is valid. I trust that you won’t hurt me. We say we trust in our words and in our actions.

I wrote about this at length IN THIS POST


 5.  Appreciation.

A simple “thank you” goes a really, really long way, and it’s so important in a Dom/sub relationship.

Thank you for leading our family.
Thank you for working so hard.
Thank you for taking the time to meet my needs.
Thank you for the best night of sex I’ve ever had.
Thank you for the flowers.
Thank you for being a good father.
Thank you for spending time instead of playing your new game on Xbox.
Thank you for providing for us.

And sometimes as a submissive, we need to really take this further.

Thank you for spanking me when I needed it.
Thank you for helping me improve. 

Thank you for stopping me when I was losing my mind.

Thank you for not allowing me to spiral out of control.
Thank you for taking control.
Thank you for leading me.


And the list goes on and on.
Have we thanked our Doms lately?

6.  Praise.

Dovetailing on appreciation, a dominant partner needs praise. This is one of the hardest things for me. Words of affirmation are not one of my love languages. So I have to make a conscious effort to praise him for the things he does well. This past weekend he spent time sanding a stairway of ours that he’s working on, and I totally didn’t realize he’d done the work (I was distracted at the time, as it was quite obvious he’d done it). I had to stop what I was doing and tell him how much I loved what he did. He needs this from me.

I think I sometimes think because he’s the dom, he’s this all-powerful, all-knowing guy. Well, he’s human. And he’s one hell of a Dom. So I need to tell him that. Praise him for how he is with me. I wrote more about this HERE

7.   Communication

Hand in hand with guidance, a dom needs open and honest communication. Since most Dom/sub dynamics involve a female submissive and male dominant, my advice is to K.I.S.S. Keep it simple, sister. I’ve spent forty years of my life observing the male species and daresay that a good majority of them like straightforward, honest communication.

Don’t spend hours trying to explain what you want. Say, “I really need a spanking. Would you help me with that?”

Don’t spend hours talking about your needs. Cut to the chase. “Could you help me get to bed on time?”

If your communication is lacking, spend some time trying to figure out why. Is the timing right? Talking to my Jason when he’s on his way to work, or at work, is pretty much completely futile. He’s a focused guy, so when he’s on his way to work or at work, that’s where his focus is. He doesn’t want to talk about budgets then. He doesn’t want to spend hours discussing rules. For him, it’s pretty much the worst time ever to talk.

When is a good time? At night. When the kids are in bed. During morning check-ins. Date nights. Weekends.


Letters and emails often work well, so he can read at his leisure.


8. Honesty

Along with communication, dominants need honesty. So, so many times, I’ve not wanted to tell Jason how I really felt about something because I was afraid. Afraid he’d not want this dynamic anymore. Afraid that he’d pull away from me. Afraid that once he found out what I’d done, I’d get my punished.

But if he is going to lead me, he needs me to be honest. If I’m not able to handle being honest with him, then I’m not sure how this dynamic can work.


Honest about my needs. Honest about my rules, what I’ve done and what I haven’t. Honest about my fears. Honest about my emotions.


Learning to communicate honestly but succinctly, because he really prefers me to cut to the chase, has taken time. But, it can be done.

From Tumblr


 9.   Sex.

Let’s be blunt. This doesn’t apply to everyone. But it applies to many. Some people have lower sex drives than others, and the reasons are many and varied. Medical conditions? Age? Personal preference?

But most of the Doms I know, including my own, have a high need for sex. Sometimes, this need is hidden, because dominant partners have learned to temper their needs when they had small children, their wives took on new jobs, etc. Just because they don’t ask for it doesn’t mean they don’t want it.

But if they do ask for it? Well. We know what we have to do.

Next to spanking, submitting sexually is one of the best ways to fuel a dynamic. Oral sex, sex in the middle of the night, frequent sex, kinky sex? Bring it. All the time. All the ways. Shut the TV off, put the phone down, get a babysitter, do whatever you need to do: if your Dom needs sex, give it to him. He doesn’t care that you’ve got stretch marks. He doesn’t care that you think your tummy’s flabby. He wants you.

More about this in a lengthier post HERE


  10. Time 
  
As I mentioned in my last post, Doms and subs are unique creatures. When we submissives come to our dominant partners, we’re asking for a lot. In most cases, we’re asking them to let go of long-held, mainstream beliefs in equality. We’re asking for time and attention. In some cases we’re asking our partners to go out of their comfort zones and cause us pain (and not all of them readily embrace that. In fact, it’s pretty rare, at least at first).

If we’re asking our partners to Dom us, we can’t expect them to manufacture time out of thin air.

Does he have a job? Do you have children? Do you have a home he cares for?

To us, the lifestyle might seem like it should naturally incorporate into our day to day without causing any sort of disruption, but that’s very, very rarely the case. In most cases, if we want to be dommed, then we need to “clear the deck.” Maybe we need to take on putting the kids to bed at night. Maybe we need to hire someone to mow the lawn or spend less time out at night socializing with our friends.

If you want a full-time Dom, you need to give him full-time Dom hours. Hey, maybe your best friend’s husband puts the kids to bed and cooks dinner every night. Is he a Dom?

Being a dom is a job. And yes, it’s a rewarding one that has the potential of bearing amazing fruit, but it takes time and energy to do.

So if you’re a submissive who’s presented her needs to her dominant partner, and would like to see your roles embraced more fully, I have a challenge for you. Spend some time asking yourself how you can clear the decks for him. Working Dom/sub relationships aren’t always organic; in most cases, they must be cultivated with time, attention, kindness, and open communication.

If he's under enormous stress or work, or his mother is sick and he's caring for her needs, then often his energy is zapped. It makes domming so much harder to do. Of course, we have things that zap our energy, too, but I'm assuming we want this dynamic to work. So let's take a look at how we can do that. 

Now over time, as you develop habits and come to a mutual understanding of things, the ability to Dom does become far easier. Jason does it now intuitively, just as I obey him intuitively, but this is only after nearly six years of dedication to this dynamic played out fully, and over sixteen years of filling our roles.

If you’re a Dom reading this:

Doms, submissives are also unique creatures. If she’s clearing the decks for you and asking you to dom her, and you’re willing and able, keep in mind you can’t expect to give her the attention your friend gives his wife and expect her to be satisified. If you want to reap the incredible benefits of this dynamic – foster intimacy and peace in your dynamic, ramp up your erotic vibe in your relationship, cultivate peace, draw closer -- you’re going to have to work a lot harder than the average guy… at least at first. 



But before you groan, anticipating a life in which your future entails you spending every waking moment meeting the needs of your wife, take heart. Once the needs of a submissive are understood, the actual amount of time and effort you need to put in is far less than you might think. A smack on the ass as you walk by her in the kitchen. A text through the day asking if she’s done her chores. Maintenance with regularity. Just a few minutes of your undivided attention. If she needs time to process and you find it draining, consider instructing her to journal or spend some time meditating.

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I hope some of you have found these explorations of needs helpful. Please do take what you like and leave the rest, as we're all unique creatures, and we don't all mimic one another's needs. However, my hope is that understanding our needs a little better can help our relationships flourish.